Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Attention to Detail

So I signed up for this babycenter thing online when I found out was pregnant....you know one of those things that tells you what's happening during your 15th week, 16th week, 17th week of pregnancy...and on and on....you know the one you check religiously because it's your first pregnancy and you are just so excited and need to know every little detail that is going on with you and your baby...Yeah...that one. Well after Neesee was born and after her diagnosis and all the hurt and grief from it as well...the updates kept coming.....
They kept coming and well.... telling me what my child was SUPPOSED to be doing...yup. I should have cancelled it but instead I just stopped checking this one email that I would get weekly....
Well the other day I decided to take a peek at it and it said your 22 month old and what she is doing....it said now that your child is more mobile....instead of taking her for a walk in the stroller...take her around the block by her hand...(well Neesee doesn't walk) so that was a hit in the stomach...and then I read on it said "your toddler is paying a lot of attention to detail lately and when you take her for a walk around the block, don't be surprised if she stops to stare at rocks or pick up leaves and just look at them closely...that she will be paying attention to detail....so I quickly thought "ok whatever" and closed it out only to feel a little bit of sadness for what "she's not doing". I've gotten through a lot of this feeling and don't feel sad very often anymore because I tend not to pay attention and just go with the flow...I have learned that we go at our own pace, while the rest of the world is in a hurry...But when it's staring you right in the face in black and white...it hard not to notice...of course it was my fault for reading it...but that's beyond the point.
So this morning I'm getting laundry done, dusting, catching up on housework...when I hear Neesee playing with something.....so I look over and guess what has this lil girls attention???!!! The damn little door stopper at the bottom of the wall behind the door!!! What the heck!!?? Talk about attention to detail!!!! There she goes impressing me again....I'm just a proud mama!!!